We seem to struggle with life and its many battles and journey's, but we always get by, which I know in my heart that is the greatest blessing of all. There are days I want to have a family so bad that it is literally depressing knowing that I can see the light but I can't touch it, and I am not even close yet. I put those lyrics up above because they have been so inspiring to me these last few months. The Song is called "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri and I truly love the song, in fact I have decided when we have our first child I want this song to be playing in the room. That is how much it has inspired me to stay strong and keep loving our future children and our future family. I know that Heavenly Father has so much in store for us and I know that my Savior knows our pain and our heartache. Not being able to control the situation is so hard because I really really like to be in control, and I think that this may be one of the hardest trials we will have to go through, is waiting. Waiting for that day when we can hold my baby for the very first time, when we can smell him/her, and kiss him/her, and finally have that joy of being MOM and DAD. We move forward as one and we understand each other and most of the reasons we have to wait for our family. I know we will appreciate it that much more because we waited, not because we wanted to, but because Heavenly Father knew we needed to. There will still be days that we struggle and hurt because of it but this our journey and such is life. I know we will have a family and grow toward being that much closer to being with our Heavenly Father. That is all we could ever hope for...all we could ask for.